I am seeking in patient medical care for the foreseeable future. I may be unable to receive that care. In that event, I'm am going to use the months of June and July to secure passport and pursue long term care abroad.

Back blog
26/05/22: Had a long appointment with a case manager, about goals I have. I'm still homeless, but staying in a motel; courtesy of charitable funding. Our (Mine and Anne's) car has had one of the major repairs done. That was killer, but it's done. I have an appointment tomorrow to go over the next draft of getting a home. I plan to be fatigued until next week. I hope I can get some game work done for my two-point-two games I have.
06/06/22: Had an emotional breakdown. An awakening of past events, by relying on an abusive family, and as everyone has warned me, led to this danger I am face to face with. Not literally, but in a moment of need, making the decision to ask for help from a former abuser, and have them seize the moment and with it my heart in a vice. I'm wrecked, just devastated right now. It's not my fault, I know that. I just wish I had listened more carefully when people in my last game told me, especially when friends new and old told me, to forgive, fine, but be careful. I know it's not my fault. I just wish I had not allowed mercy to blind me to being attacked. If you have words of support, I'd really appreciate them. If you don't, and your reading this, thank you for taking the time. Whether you were directed here by someone, or just came to look here out of concern or wonder. I'm not well, to be honest. Still homeless, but at least in a motel for the time being. I have food, I have a bed. I have mini fridge. But I know this can't last. I think I'm close to getting a home, but I'm as close from losing this place if not closer. So I'm very scared, and very sad. I just want a home! I want to go home...
18/06/22: Lost a lot of ground on RPoL. With my case manager and new medication, I'm struggling to write, but doing better in day to day life. Here is my hope: to GM when I have a home...
02/07/22: I think I'm looking at September at the latest to return to full time GMing.It might be as early as late this month, but the target seems to be August. I'm working as a mapmaker right now, and chatting in Rmail. Even that's a bit overwhelming ATM. I'm feeling better though. Just still poor overall.
03/10/22: Looking to start my exalted 2e game "Empress Axis" soon. Starting workshopping on my D&D 3.5 game "Staff's Wake" this month. I think the former will start the game portion by late November, but may be beginning of year. I know the D&D game will surge during October, but probably not start until beginning of year, since so much discussion and weeding out of vanishing players, or incompatibility will need to occur for the game to have the right chemistry.
05/10/22: Still in temporary housing, but have good leads to be moving this month. I quite overdid myself yesterday online, and need a couple days to slow down. I have to take take with my OCD to moderate my time on RPoL. To be online long enough to make a difference, but not too long as to make me sick. I fell into the latter pitfall yesterday to this morning.
23/10/22: Roommate, Anne, just ripped out my throat like a Pez dispenser for asking her to take out the trash and go to the grocery. Very upset by the abuse, and seriously uncomfortable ATM. I will update the game ASAP, but it's awkward right now with Leife.
31/10/22: Perhaps the final chapter, perhaps the climactic trial, perhaps the end of an era for me. I'm becoming prey to abusive people, to stay off the streets. I have little to no support right now, and I can only trust my own instinct. I need basic things. An episode of a Youtube show validated something I've known my entire life. Freedom comes before shelter, and then home, food, clothing. I have the freedom to leave when I've had enough, but this trial will be facing one of my final traumas left unvisited since the dungeon of 2009. Anne, my best friend, almost took her own life over the trauma she's bracing for. I endure, I will survive. I know when I do, I'll want something easy to grasp, something of an escape. If you can send any help, I graciously accept it. Zag, J, Tom, Nuric, K, JR, Wintermantle, Shaman, G.O.D., Karack and Kazzaroth...you've all been support systems over these decades, some most recently, some not for years, some coming and going. If my illness, my exposure to Asbestos gets me, if something should happen; I wouldn't know it until it was too late. I might be mawkish to say it this way, but I'm scared. I'll be bare before the flame soon,  and I don't know how long the coals will remain red hot. Siran, Ming Ming, Eggy, and the rest of the Harpies...take your moments of revelry, and let the suspended anguish quench this feud that has gone far more than stale. The fetid feelings and lists have had their reign. Bury the hatchet, like I have so long ago. To Lawpreacher, Faebinder, and Shado. I hope you will think better of me. Though my time with you was aborted, I did enjoy it far more than I think you may have realized.

Farewell for now. Days, months, years...more...I don't know. It took my almost a decade to escape the dungeon. Now that I stare aghast at the depths, I don't really know that the descent will be any quicker...and then I still have the harrow the dybbuk beneath before emerging.

-V aka Raven
01/12/22: I'm still homeless, but I've had an abode for the past month
 This rinky-dink phone is my only web access, but if I'm so inclined I can go to the library. I have hope for a home. 98.9 the Rock has a charity I'm going to enter Anne into. I dearly appreciate the reconciling Anne and I've had. People do harm sometimes, and that can make them seem toxic. She has her meds, she suffered so much in November to show she does care. Toxic people don't do that, not for a month straight. Anyway, too many people to type have shown support in addition to those above. I am going to update the list below when on a laptop on desktop with web access. I will say I am growing an appetite to gm D&D and exalted, and my own saga system. So when I have web access on my PC, I'm jumping in! I need to break this tension by being bold, and post often enough to make it fun. I hope I can find an exalted ST too. I want play so bad!
04/03/22: I lost my chance to meet with my case manager in a critical  time (he called in sick) so it threw me down a very tall hill back to a point I was in October. I'm mad that I didn't get help at a very critical stage, but it is at face value, nothing more or less, and it's not my fault. I have two months to appeal, but I basically waited on him to help me, and then when the time came, he didn't, so I was left to scramble. Anyway, I've been fuming about that, and did not want to take the anger into the game community. I'm just hoping I don't have funding suspended because he said "Don't worry! WE'll get it done". Well, if we had in November instead...ugh! Not worth shouting out. *sigh* Don't get mad, get even. I know. It will be the very first thing him and I work out, the appeal, and everything else will come second.
05/04/23: I have two choices, and for me there's no Andy Dusfresne, just the red. Time to get busy. Bag me or rack me.

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but...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JAmspaaSNzE