The Story So Far: The Salvation of Carl Allans
Carl walks, his steps precise through the chaos, tense and not staggering. Not stalking, though it's clear he's as out of place here as a wolf somehow finding himself alone in some farmer's yard, where fang and fury are subject to the incomprehensible striking power of the almighty shotgun. The tension/sense of out-of-placeness doesn't ease when he finds Molly, though there's a kind of feral tenderness as he silently interrupts whatever her friend's saying to her by gently taking up her fingers and (if she'll let him/let him get that far) angling her injured arm to see how it's doing.
Molly gives Carl a surprise hug as he bends near. "My hero!" She says. Her wound is bandaged, but the way she's moving suggests it isn't hurting much.
Carl startles, but catches himself before he jerks back and pulls them both over. His breath catches just a little as she puts pressure on bruises/injuries various, but he puts his uninjured left arm about her shoulders and squeezes briefly like 'it's all right.'
"I'm so glad to see you're alright!" She gushes. "Facing down that monster like you did on your own. It's just been so crazy..." She looks down as his battered form. "Oh golly! You should get that looked at! Father! Father, come quick!" She calls.
From the ranks of the praying and the frightened comes a young man with a preacher's collar, who looks equal parts kind and tired. "Yes, Mrs. Hollison?"
"It's Carl! The one I told you about, the one who saved me from certain death! He's been injured! Look!"
The preacher nears Carl. "Well. Let's take a look." He says, and waits for Carl's permission to begin his examination.
Carl has to give a twitch of a smile at that. "..."
He's still not sure about the new priest, but warily takes his duster off and lays it over a pew with his hat when Molly lets him go, undoing his cuff and only flinching a tiny bit as he tweaks blood-soaked cloth out of the wound, rolling the sleeve back to show the man it's definitely a bite, not a simple scratch like Evans thought/may have described, and as such might be infected. "..." Minus the duster it's clear he's also recently been shot, though he stands straight and calm as though he's not in a great deal of pain.
The preacher looks him over. "hmm...That looks like a pretty bad bite." He looks it over. "I don't see any inflammation or swelling, though, which is a good sign. Just to be safe, I'm going to wash it out. This will sting." He pulls out a flask, and dabs a bit of whiskey into the wound. Then he pulls out a needle and thread and begins to sew. As he does, he prays. "Almighty and merciful Father, by the power of your command, drive away from this poor soul all forms of sickness and disease. Restore strength to his body and joy to his spirit, so that in his renewed health he may bless and serve you, now and forevermore."
As he works on the bite, Carl can almost feel the pain washing away. The same happens as the preacher applies his skills and prayers to the gunshot wound. It's as if his touch alone is removing the pain and infusing him with strength. In hardly any time at all, the wounds are stitched and Carl feels almost alive again.
The preacher frowns, though. "Hmm...something isn't right..." he looks at Carl. "How are you feeling, son?"
Carl's eyes and nostrils widen a bit - not at the sting, which he scarcely seemed to notice, but the words and accompanying lack of pain/energy - twice he tenses like he's going to pull his arm away from the preacher, but silently talks himself down with the reasoning that the physical wound is being fixed. He's a lot tenser when O'Rourke fetches a chair and attends to his side, though he doesn't flinch, patiently holding his shirt out of the way and gripping the pew behind him until his nails leave little crescents in the wood.
Carl looks at the preacher with something almost like fear - something that erases the five years or so added by his general denamour, his darkened, weathered skin and the marks of a hard life. He touches his throat as though in earnest explanation, looks briefly to Molly for help, then nods to the doorway and makes to try and move past the priest, not quite bolting.
The doorway, unfortunately, is currently full of talkative clank discussing religion with a witch. The only way past would be to knock the machine over. As Carl is registering all this, the preacher rests a gentle but firm hand on his shoulder. "Son, I can sense a darkness eating away at your soul. God can help you, if you are willing to let him in. I can save you from this evil, if you let me. What do you say?"
For the first time Carl truly flinches, as though the priest's touch burned, turning and stumbling backward, gaze locked on the clergyman's hands as though they're a loaded weapon. When he hits the side of the confessional he grips it left-handed, wide grey eyes finally meeting the priest's. Pain flares under his ribs as though in protest and he swallows - tries to swallow - dropping his gaze and making a soft choking noise as he tries desperately not to cough and awaken agony now reaching into his lungs. He wipes blood from his lower lip across the back of his hand, loosening his deathgrip on the confessional a moment, then looks up, clearly trying to speak but drawing mostly wet rasping sounds from his throat. If the preacher moves any closer without trying to quiet him first he'll quite clearly reach to put a hand on his knife.
*rasp* *rasp* "...hy?"
"Shh...it's all right, son. You are safe in the house of the Lord." Father O'Rouke says softly. He doesn't approach until Carl has calmed down a little. He ponders the question instead.
"Because...because God wants all of his children to turn back to his face and away from the evil that besets them. Because you are in agony, and the Lord has blessed me with the ability to ease that pain. Because it is the right thing to do." He gives a small, sad smile, and Carl can see that the Father really isn't much older than he is. "And because not so very long ago, I was where you are right now, asking that very question of someone trying to help me."
The safety of the House of the Lord just makes Carl back right up against the confessional and show his teeth a little, clearly not aware he's doing it.
His brow knots at the priest's words, and though he's still tensed and apparently liable to lash out, he's clearly listening, especially to the last part, though his eyes seek a way out and eventually just give a pleading look to the carved Virgin in her niche, the faintest echoes of childhood prayers whispering through the back of his mind, unbidden.
The Virgin just smiles serenely at him, her arms open wide as if to embrace him.
"I wasn't always a priest." O'Rourke says. "There was, in fact, a time when I thought God had abandoned me, and I hated Him for it. Driven by that hate, I did some very despicable things in my misspent youth. But God hadn't given up on me. He was simply waiting for me to turn to him and ask for help. One night, broken, tired, and wounded, I wound up on God's doorstep, and a preacher took me in and nursed me back to health. He didn't just save my body that night...he saved my soul. Since then, I've been wandering, searching for the place God wanted to put me. He brought me here."
"This town...it's so strong in many ways, but so terribly, terribly wounded in others. I spoke with Bill McCoy, one of the other Dust Adders. He and I had a very long talk, which I'm not at liberty to comment more on. But from what he told me and what I've seen with my own eyes, I've come to realize that there is a vicious evil striking at the hearts of the people of this town. And you've been touched by it. I can see the burn on your forehead, and I can sense the damage it's doing to you. It is within my power to heal that damage, but you need to put your faith in me and in Jesus Christ before I can."
He holds out his hand to help Carl stand. "Please. Let me help you."
Carl hauls himself up the wall beside the confessional and after a few abortive rasps and hideously painful attempts to speak wipes blood from below his stitches to write on the wall:
PERSY
and
SAV MI FATHR
He seems to have calmed a little now - the steel in him is back, though he's shaking. He looks at the priest as though the answer/s to whatever he's querying are far more important than anything else O'Rourke could say to him.
O'Rourke looks at the words in blood, and nods, his mouth a thin grim line. "If they are afflicted with the same malady as you, yes. I can help them. For that, I will need you to lead me to them. And for that to happen, you need to be well enough to lead."
Carl dabs at the wall near 'PERSY' as though to confirm that, but just draws a simplified bottle on the wall next to the latter message, and after a moment's pause, gives it a devil tail. It looks silly as get all, but the meaning is clear: bottle demon. Carl resumes his expectant look at the priest, a great deal of determination in the set of his shoulders. Seems he won't take one step back from the road to Perdition, no matter how much it hurts, if it means walking away from his father after thirty years.
The priest studies the mark carefully. "Well. The Demon Drink is a formidable foe. hmm...it would be difficult. It will take time. It will take faith, and a willingness to walk that hard, hard road. I can serve as a guide and a helping hand along the road, but he will have to walk it himself. But there is hope. I can't cure him with a wave of my hands and a few Hail Marys, but I can offer him a chance to crawl from that pit of despair if he's willing to work at it."
Carl frowns and looks at his own hands as though they'll tell him what to do - clearly there's been little else in this man's life he's been able to depend on - then lifts his shirt a bit and touches the surprisingly non-painful new-stitched wound in his side. The phrase very despicable things tangles itself with the prayers and the safe feeling right on the edge of his memory, a child's unquestioning faith. Moving slowly, still lightheaded with bloodloss and two days without food, he wipes the blood from his fingertips and along his arms onto his palms and shows the priest what kind of life he's led: bloody-handed.
The priest nods in understanding, and lifts his own hands, which are still bloodied from doing the stitching. "Believe me. I've been there. Sometimes you wonder if it's ever going to wash away. And even if it is, you know it's been there. You know it for the rest of your life. But the blood on your hands does not need to define you."
Carl tenses, not understanding any of it except that thread of commonality with the priest...but maybe the point isn't to understand at all, but to believe. If he could. He looks up at the not-particularly interesting ceiling with its layers of cobwebs and dust. Why would You want me? Why should this man's words work, when nothing ever has before? (if you don't take this offer, you'll never know) Naturally, there's only the sound of rain.
Carl closes his eyes, shudders, and interlaces his fingers with the priest's right hand just before the other lowers it.
The priest hold's Carl's hand for a moment, then stands. He returns with a bottle of communion wine, a loaf of bread (probably brought in by the Clank), and a tin cup.
"Sorry for the somewhat slapdash manner of this." he says. "I'm still putting things together after the last priest was..." he doesn't complete that, he just moves ahead. He begins to pray.
"We give you praise, Father most holy, for you are great, and you have fashioned all your works in wisdom and in love. You formed man in your own image and entrusted the whole world to his care, so that in serving you alone, the Creator, he might have dominion over all creatures."
"And when through disobedience he had lost your friendship, you did not abandon him to the domain of death. For you came in mercy to the aid of all, so that those who seek might find you. Time and again you offered them covenants and through the prophets taught them to look forward to salvation."
"And you so loved the world, Father most holy, that in the fullness of time you sent your Only Begotten Son to be our Savior. Made incarnate by the Holy Spirit and born of the Virgin Mary, he shared our human nature in all things but sin. To the poor he proclaimed the good news of salvation, to prisoners, freedom, and to the sorrowful of heart, joy"
"To accomplish your plan, he gave himself up to death, and, rising from the dead, he destroyed death and restored life. And that we might live no longer for ourselves but for him who died and rose again for us, he sent the Holy Spirit from you, Father, as the first fruits for those who believe, so that, bringing to perfection his work in the world, he might sanctify creation to the full."
Father O'Rouke picked up the wine and the bread.
"Make holy, therefore, these gifts, we pray, by sending down your Spirit upon them like the dewfall, so that they may become for us the Body and Blood of our Lord, Jesus Christ."
"At the time he was betrayed and entered willingly into his Passion, he took bread and, giving thanks, broke it, and gave it to his disciples, saying:"
"TAKE THIS, ALL OF YOU, AND EAT OF IT: FOR THIS IS MY BODY WHICH WILL BE GIVEN UP FOR YOU."
He tears off a piece of the loaf, and holds it out for Carl to take and eat.
Carl stays where he is, feeling perhaps smaller than he ever has, though not wretched, which is new. Rising from the dead brings to mind Jesse, but he pushes that thought away for now. Something, he thinks, is near him, and for the first time in a long time he drops all defences and just submits, shivering at the vulnerability of his naked spirit before all the unknown. It almost feels cold, though that may be the damp in the air.
He looks up wide-eyed at the priest's loud voice, the full meaning of the words striking his unguarded soul, and reaches up for the makeshift sacrament half-wondering if it'll feel like flesh.
He takes and eats it, slowly. It hurts a lot but he's trying not to think right now so much as exist...and something seems to settle on him, and he's sharply aware of everything around like a man about to die, or just saved from the noose, and there's something like blood on his face. Carl touches it, his throat still roaring its complaints about the host and trying to fleck his lungs with raw red hurt. He looks at the tears that come away on his fingertips like he can't quite remember what they are.
Father O'Rourke continues his prayer. He pours the communion wine into the tin cup, hands it over to Carl, and says, "In a similar way, when supper was ended, he took the chalice and, once more giving thanks, he gave it to his disciples, saying"
"TAKE THIS, ALL OF YOU, AND DRINK FROM IT: FOR THIS IS THE CHALICE OF MY BLOOD, THE BLOOD OF THE NEW AND ETERNAL COVENANT, WHICH WILL BE POURED OUT FOR YOU AND FOR MANY FOR THE FORGIVENESS OF SINS. DO THIS IN MEMORY OF ME."
The wine is bitter, but as Carl drinks, the vingar taste washes away the agony that had been tearing at his throat. He can feel the dizziness of the last few days passing away.
Father O'Rourke raises his hands. "Therefore, as we celebrate the memorial of his Death and Resurrection, we offer you, Lord, the Bread of life and the Chalice of salvation, giving thanks that you have held us worthy to be in your presence and minister to you."
As he speaks, the pain inside subsides, and there's a feeling of weightlessness, as if a heavy load has just been taken off Carl's shoulders.
"Our Father, who art in Heaven,
hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy Will be done,
on Earth, as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever."
He rests his hand on Carl's temple.
"Amen."
Carl braces at the hand near his face, but then relaxes. He has known this feeling before, several hours' walk from anywhere, though he has no name for it. If it's the opposite of 'lost' it's certainly not in the usual sense. His lips move almost by instinct, tracing the prayer to its end, wondering why the priest chose to use words just anyone could understand. Was that right?
"...amen."
He grips the 'chalice of salvation' down there on the floor amongst the random junk, still somewhat covered in grime and blood, and tries to collect who he is now before considering getting up. Alive. Desire flares in him, to do many things, not all of them holy. He nods to the nearest casualty, whom the priest can help and he can't, absently petting the chicken that's wandered up.