overwhelmed :)
Most games here are private, and Adult games are required to be, to shield their content from youngsters. If you find a game or two that appeal to you, you could ask the GMs if they'll let you Lurk on a read-only basis for a while.
Apart from that, all you can do is keep trying,in Players Wanted and GMs Wanted. I see you already found your near-namesake - you could be happy there.