Fair enough.

Most of my dreams are... well almost lucid dreams. they feel like I am awake. Back when They were interesting, I took the neater ideas and added them to one of my campaign series. Which would explain why it seems so... unrefined to me. And why I have not worked on it much or opened it for RTJs... Then again I am pretty sure that is a discussion for a different thread...

Why do I always wind up getting in on games that go slower than a snail? :(

Seen this one happen and no the player is upset still about it as I'm related to her.

Being accused of Meta and baiting in a game despite not doing either. The meta was accused but the player had been responding to a post made to her by another player in the game. Not meta just doing something IC that felt right.

The baiting she was never sure on either. That one caught her off guard and in her mind the same ones that accused her of meta themselves were doing just this. Sad really.

Slow games....mostly on wednesdays and weekends I notice this the most.

Not so much a vent, just depressed. Been sitting here typing a paragraph and then holding back space for about 2 hours now. If I actually click post message it was either an accident or I just decided to post something.

Not really looking for pity, I just feel like if I type this crap out ill feel better.

Im 23, Im an alcoholic. I have been a literal slave to my grandfather and skitzo father since I was 11 and I dont know what to do with my freedom now that im of age. I dont know how to drive because I was never taught, discouraged from asking. Never allowed to accumulate alot of money, I really dont know what to do. So I drink and hang out with my girlfriend. Correction, I sober up as soon as I find out she can come over and dont touch a drop untill shes gone. Im afraid shes cheating on me.

I have terrible PTSD, im afraid of mirrors, the half lit dark, doors open at angles so that I cant see into them. Im to proud to go on SSD for my PTSD or welfare but I had an attack at my last work place and it was bad and embarrassing i had never had one in public. The alcohol is the only thing that really keeps it in check, the meds just make me depressed.

My girlfriend is annoyed that all I seem to think or care about is roleplaying, and I tell her "why? why would I want to sit here and be me when I have nothing better to do" and it upsets her/enrages her. Shes so critical of me lately she never tries to make me happy when ill wear myself out being her slave. Its all im really good for.

I dont really have any friends to hang out with in real life and my terrible internet has really crippled me from doing anything online. I used to have lots of good friends but they all went to college and are going on about there lives now. Just kinda forgot about me.

Hasnt been the greatest last 2 3 7 12 years, Just dont know what to do anymore other then keep on doing things that make my life suck less.

I'm so sorry about your situation, my friend.   i don't have any serious advice for you, except that you might have to put your pride away to get some help.

We're here if you need someone to vent to some more, though.

I'd say get a new girlfriend too. There's at least one out there that isn't condescending to you on the basis of your hobbies.

Free advice for what it's worth:

Vent here, on RPOL (You write well.) all you want.

Pick one thing to do that you think has a chance to make your life better. AA is a possiblity.

Most people I know, including me, have had dark times...you may have been mistreated more than most. BTW, do you want their mistreatment to keep on affecting you?

I'm going against another steelsmiter's advice. DON'T get a new girlfriend. You need to focus on yourself. Unless you've got kids or some financial commitment, cut her loose.

Go to AA. If you want to be helped, then it will probably work for you. PTSD is not a life sentance. Asking for/seeking help is nothing to be ashamed of. The hardest thing is to actually get out of the house. Sometimes it feels like the whole world. Next hurdle is the negativity of others. If anyone tells you that trying to improve your life isn't worthwhile, then you must limit your time with that person. It will feel selfish at first, but don't give up.

On another forum, I post in a group called Selfish. It's about letting other people know that you're not a doormat, a slave or an ATM for anyone.  When you stand up to a Sponge, he or she might call you Selfish because your positive changes aren't convenient to him or her at the moment.

Vent thread is always open, Andrew.

In reply to Andrew Wilson (msg # 979):

It can be difficult being "the strong one". I'm not saying your gf should behave the ways she does, but some people aren't cut out for helping people with issues. It's not your fault if she gives up.

I don't know her so to be fair to a stranger I will assume the best: it might not be that she's fed up with your roleplaying. It might be more that she's frustrated it's your only outlet. Do you play tabletop? Or only online? She might just be trying to get you out of a comfortable hole and finding it hard.

Try to stop drinking. It relaxes you, but it fills your body with toxins and makes you feel crappy whenever you're not drunk.

Do you cook? There can be a real pleasure in cooking for someone and it often improves the quality of diet and subsequently your physical health. Feeling better physically can help or at least reduces the number of things making you feel awful.

You can take control of your life piece by piece. You don't have to fix everything at once. Sometimes you have to make yourself just do things, and sometimes you have redefine your goals. The main thing is to try not to let feeling like sugarplums put you off doing things you need or want to do.

This message was deleted by the user at 13:42, Sat 26 July 2014.

Talk to an admin, or a mod. They can remove you from games.

In reply to Lady Voldia (msg # 985):

Yeah, I believe you can ask the mods to remove you from a game if needs be.

This message was deleted by the user at 04:12, Sat 26 July 2014.

From /help/?t=faqs&page=playersfaq
How do I remove myself from a game?
As only GMs can add players to a game, only GMs can remove players from a game.  If you'd like to leave a game, be sure to tell the GM and ask them to remove you from it (otherwise it will keep popping up on your Sticky List).  If they do not respect your wishes within a reasonable time, contact the Moderators about the issue by rMail with a link to the PM where you requested to be removed.

It might be worth mentioning here that

"reasonable time" is measured in days rather than minutes or even hours.

It also might be mentioned that the moderators are not tools to help anyone have a last word in any argument.

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If anyone would like to be removed from a game, here are my suggestions to make it go smoothly.

1)  Ask the GM to remove you.  If you really don't want to discuss the issue, then let them know that -- but BEFORE you tell them what you think, not after.  When you want to give an honest (or even biased) opinion, you probably should expect some sort of response.  If you don't want to read it, then don't.  You have control over what you do or do not click.

2) Wait a week.  Remove the game from your sticky list if/when it pops up.  If there's drama going on, then do not read any more messages there.  That takes a little bit of willpower, but it is doable and it builds character and the more you do it, the easier it gets.  (Trust me.)

3) If the game pops up again AFTER a week, then contact the moderators.

This message was deleted by the user at 14:19, Sat 26 July 2014.

My note applies to anyone wanting to be removed from a game.

There is no need to discuss the specific removal request anymore as it has been resolved by the people involved.

This message was deleted by the user at 15:22, Sat 26 July 2014.

Not sure what's going on anymore. Tragedy makes you rethink your priorities. So now for the vent.

Car fluids leaking onto pavements or parking lots. Never really noticed it before but sadly yesterday afternoon some oil on a parking lot led to tragedy. Just wish people would be more careful.

Stress-Never a good thing and causes people to act irrationally at times.

Depression and Axiety-another bad one esepcially as a combo. I usually use the site to help me through this. Lately that's not been working so well. Guess need to find another place to go.

In reply to Lady Voldia (msg # 994):

I'm so sorry for the horrible events in your life, my friend.   If there's anything we can do, please let us know.    *hugs*

maybe a nice video game where you can beat on on 'people' would help. Helps me sometimes, I just lable a group what ever is T-ing me off then happily beat them in to the floor, lots.

Agreed, sometimes taking your rage out in a no-save run-through on a GTA game can work some good wonders... Better than taking the rage out on real people ;)

I hope not "another" place to go but an "additional" place to go.

In reply to Andrew Wilson (msg # 979):

Your g/f sounds like another downer in your life, though it's good that you don't drink when you're with her, but since I don't know either of you maybe that's too harsh.  Anyway, you don't need another g/f, you need friends, outlets for your energy, ways to work off your frustration.  The cooking suggestion is good, it's creative, can make good things to eat, takes time and organization and some thought.

I can appreciate that your g/f might find your roleplaying frustrating, since it seems to be your only outlet, it probably interferes with time you might otherwise spend with her.

Try to cut back, or quit, drinking.  Alcohol is a depressant, and the physical aftermath isn't helping (I know whereof I speak here!).

Have you thought of taking a course of some sort?  There are online and correspondence courses if you can't get to one physically.  Learning something new could give you a focus, perhaps help you to get a decent job, but expanding your horizons is always good.

Closing this, because it's hit the 1000 post limit.
This message was last edited by the user at 15:07, Sun 27 July 2014.